Hello dear dear...

A lil update to our blog..

Its 3am and its time like this I start to think about alot of things. And somehow, maybe I am better in expressing myself in words than verbally.

I am still thinking about going for exchange. And somehow, there's this part of me which really want to go, and have the kind of fun my friends are having now. This experience is something which I want to embark on, notwithstanding the problems I am facing now.

You should know that one of my concern if you. Because it seems to me that you will not give me the green light to go ahead willingly. And the fact that because I care about your views made it harder for me. Can you see my dilemma? I don't want to go, feeling insecure about our relationship, yet if I don't go, it is something which I might regret in future, especially if one day I am not with you anymore.

Addressing your concern, how I see it is that, its only 4 months. I know your point is that a lot can happen in 4 months but I want us to have more faith in our relationship and each other. And I know that this 4 months can be a good test for us. Which is also the reason why I always encourage you to go for detachment because the distance can be a good test for us and I don't see a problem with us not being to cope with it.

I am considering going to Canada,if not the States. And it is somewhere I really want to go. Its going to be expensive (20k?) but I will talk to my dad about it or at most, get a interest free loan. But this decision and process would not be easy for me to make without the support from you. Your support will really mean a lot to me.

We cannot run away from the fact that we might be separated by distance forever. One day I might choose to take a Masters overseas, or might be despatched overseas for work reasons (1-2 months?). So I hope we can face up to it now rather than just running away from it, if we want to norm this problem at an earlier stage.

Becasue you mean so much to me, your say and support will really determine my feelings a lot...

Love you!