Not This Way

Hey dear ah .. must get this clear hor .. I'm unhappy not cuz u went to Gala dinner and all tat kay. It would be real unreasonable of me to feel that way man. I wun ask u to dress up nice nice etc if i dun like the idea of you going le .. I never wanna restrict you .. not this way.

As I've told you, maybe its the feeling of not being able to see you or having so limited time with you yesterday .. Cuz I felt empty and loney last night eh .. well .. maybe made worst by the silly long bus journey to and fro. haa ... you dunno how i yearn to see you man.

But i know it would be inpractical if i request to see you, for means you will have to stop whatever you're doing and meet me. Another point will be I dun really know tat place but well there's always street directory la. haa ...

So please dun get the wrong message kay .. and I'm not excately what u called unhappy la .. just more of hmmm ... you know tat kinda alone and sad feeling that u get sumtimes. But I NEVER complain hor ... for I do put myself in ur smelly shoes too. You will tend to face more of this kinda things cuz of my job nature.

Wanted to hide my feelings from you at first and pretend I'm all so alright but well .. haa .. I CANT LIE FROM YOU god damn it. Anyone but you dear.

Sayang.