I am unhappy bcos I feel that you are too concerned about how your friends feel, how not nice it is to them to do this or not do this etc, to the extent that you will neglect how I feel and how not nice it is to me. I am not saying that you should ignore how other ppl feel, but at the same time, I feel that you neglect how I feel while doing that.

Even my friends also know how to plan for an activity after my exam, not just to go ahead without me, but my boyfriend don't. I'm not trying to say that you cannot find your own things to do. But is a group outing like this (when I am always involved) necessary? This thing is planned cos shijia and xiaowei finished exams. THEN WHAT ABOUT ME?

I know you are not the one who suggested. But I don't see why its so hard to just tell Mou that why don't we go next week instead of being so enthusiastic about it. I don't see why its not nice to do that. Its just a suggestion only. Since its a big grp activity, why don't we wait for one more week. And I dont see why he should insist also.

And I actually thought that last night's supper was just the 2 of us. You know how much I treasure time we 2 spend together now. I only realised that you asked them along after they have already confirmed. Maybe you did mention but I forgot about it. But normally u will discuss with me first. Again, I know that "its not nice" to back out so I just kept quiet about it.


Maybe I'm just oversensitive, stressed up and whatever. But all these sure aint helping me focus.